CANCER - CONTINUED

Ever since that d-day I have been searching for alternative treatments for this disease. Yes I am very much against radiation and chemotherapy for good reasons. When you search the net you find many cancer patients write about their chemo or radiation therapy and how it has adversely affected their lives. Last night when I spoke to Mataji she too told me that someone related to her ashram swamiji's had cancer and was going through chemo; and this lady had said that no one should undergo chemo. 
Now this city has no unit for radiation therapy or chemotherapy; one of the doctors from here said -'the license for radiation therapy is not easily given to any hospital, for the simple reason - radiation of the rays.' The safety of the surrounding areas is taken into consideration before the license is given. If that is the case, how is it considered safe for the cancer patient? Now they have a new term - targeted radiation and chemo. Obviously the cost is higher and it is believed to be targeted only on the affected area, so the rays do not (optimistically) touch the surrounding areas inside the patient's body. Why was this not the main thought initially?  
My search for alternative treatment gave me a lot of information and knowledge about this disease. 
http://candida-international.blogspot.in/2007/03/is-cancer-caused-by-candida-fungus.html - I found this site very informative and had sound arguments.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQwwGPiyW9M - this is on youtube, by Rick Simpson.

18/2/2018
I have been curious to know how did I get cervical cancer? Was there something I may have done to contribute towards its manifestation? My search on the net provided me with some answers. HPV (Human Papillomaviruses) comes out as the main cause for cervical cancer in women. 
https://www.cancer.org/cancer/cervical-cancer/causes-risks-prevention/what-causes.html
The above site says - Some genes control when cells grow, divide, and die:· 

• Genes that help cells grow, divide, and stay alive are called oncogenes.
• Genes that help keep cell growth under control or make cells die at the right time are called tumor suppressor genes.

Cancers can be caused by DNA mutations (gene defects) that turn on oncogenes or turn off tumor suppressor genes.

But HPV is not the only cause of cervical cancer.

another site says -

• Causes and risk factors for cervical cancer include human papillomavirus (HPV) infection, having many sexual partners, smoking, taking birth control pills, and engaging in early sexual contact.
• All women are at risk for cervical cancer. ... The human papillomavirus (HPV) is the main cause of cervical cancer. HPV is a common virus that is passed from one person to another during sex. Most sexually active people will have HPV at some point in their lives, but few women will get cervical cancer

Then I read that women with moles or warts, passed down in the genes are also at risk. I have a couple of red moles, my mum had, so did my maternal grandmother, a couple of aunts; but none of them developed cancer. I did. Why? Change of food habits? Lifestyle change? Or is it in the air? Still to unravel.  Yoga I am doing to fight this disease are - pavanamuktasana, bhujangasana, butterfly (tried boddhokonasana but just did not get the pose right, not anymore, not like before), halasana, matsyasana (not perfect), and savasana with deep breathing. Today I started mahamudra with jalandhara bandh and mula bandh. My blood pressure is normal, no sugar or diabetes, my heart is okay, my pulse rate is normal,so is my palpitation -something new I found they check. mahamudra with all these bandhs is not advisable for anyone with blood pressure problems or heart problems. period. I shall eventually know the result of these experiments very soon. I also have - two teaspoons of roasted flax seeds (found that at Patanjali store) in a day, hot water with one lemon juice before breakfast, stopped sugar completely, two caps of cow urine with equal amount of hot water twice a day, baking soda (soda bicarbonate) with honey (not regularly), apricot and its seed, grapes, nuts, oranges. And I have two raw garlic pods at lunch time with my first two morsels of food.     
I am keeping a diary. Don't know if it will benefit anyone with same problem.  My osteoarthritis and osteoporosis are intact. So is my thyroid and my spondylitis. I take on daily basis - thyronorm (75mcg), bio-d3 plus and sometimes hyfenac (plain) on days when I know I may have to be on my feet for a long duration.     
I hope to add more cheerful notes to this blog in the coming days. 

MY JOURNEY WITH CERVICAL CANCER AND ITS RAMIFICATIONS

Cancer! It is a terrifying word. It literally puts everyone in a frenzy. Death is knocking at the door. It is so insane! As if, if you did not get cancer you would live forever. Can you believe it!!!? Hehehe! Death is inevitable. This is something we learned in our Moral Science class and different scriptures confirmed it as we grew older. So why does the word 'cancer' create a havoc among people? May be, because it practically ushers us to the exit door? One way or the other, we all must get out of this beautiful and enchanting world. Period. 
29th of january the report came in. Before that the lab people called up my son-in-law and gave him the results of the biopsy test. he called my daughter and told her and she in turn told me. Her face became crestfalllen in a second! My son-in-law stopped playing music in the car from that day on, so every time I went to the different doctors and hospitals it became a silent ride. Long ones. Honestly. Because we travelled for hours to Gurgaon or Delhi - mind the traffic. What goes wrong with us? Do we stop living? Hello! I am still here - I shout inside me. I am not dead and neither have I lost the urge and zing to live. I am kicking. I shall beat this silent disease. I am prepared. But yes when I see the children upset and worried it does pull a few heart-strings. It becomes a flurry of activities - visiting different doctors, going for numerous tests, waiting for the test reports, going to the same doctor, and then visiting oncologists and radiologists. Whew! It is quite an ordeal. Specially, if all the facilities are not available in the same city or region. Every time I came out of a test or a visit only one thing stood out in my mind - f--- all this. Live and die normally. Either way I shall have to depart, so why do it in a painful way? Radio therapy or chemotherapy are killers. Believe me you. Oncologists are like hawks, waiting for any susceptible patient. They simply clutch you in their claws and brainwash you into believing that there is no way out except what they advise. It becomes worse when your family members are much junior to you (read 'children') who have no clue about such things. their only belief is the doctor - someone with an impressive string of degrees behind their names backed up with impressive hospitals, cannot be wrong. Finally I got tired of arguing and just gave in. Told them - fine I shall do as you say. Only write down that when the time comes to literally care for me who is ready? Besides, the money involved for such hideous therapies is astronomical. my and my daughter's corporate insurance may not be able to cover the whole cost. My younger son-in-law has his answer ready - 'you just go for your treatment, I shall do the needful.' Beautiful! I am really thankful that I have such loving and caring children (including sons-in-law). Should I now let them blindly follow the negative path or should I stand firm? I decided to follow my gurji's teachings - 'do not object to controversial situations because it can only aggravate further. keep silent and give yourself up to God. Let God guide them and show them the right path.'  It works miracles. Situations and conditions arise where the opposite party sees reason. Cheers! 
MRI and Ct scan of the various needed parts of the body. I literally got scared when I was being pushed or rolled into the MRI machine. I yelled out. The operator had to stop and come running to me. There I was lying like a helpless creature all tucked in and belted in and screaming - I am scared. Can you believe it? Like a child! That fellow had to assure me before he could go back to his room and start the process. He must have been laughing at this 65 year-old scared woman. I gathered courage, felt silly and told myself I will not be scared of that capsule where I can see the top about to engulf me and smother me to death. It is about six inches above the head I guess and I detest enclosed spaces. I thought - what happened to my pranayams and meditations? And then I thought of Krishna and soon he was there playing the flute and dancing around, laughing away in joy. Time passed and before I knew it the scan was over. I came out and asked my son-in-law, who was sitting outside, tensed, how long? He said just about an hour. In that period, I was even asked to hold my breath for a certain period of time - I did and yet I was not scared any more.      Next the CT scan. Then my quiet and desperate search for alternative methods, my belief in yoga and self healing. And light channeling. I am still not out of the woods. The radiotherapy and chemo are still hanging above my head, like the damocles' sword. And much more. My surrender to God. Tomorrow.